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Citadel Tab

by Anna Nalick


                 
I'm sitting on a citadel

Contemplating life
           
Making a point to waste my time
                         
I'm walking on clouds of white


            
What if I fall?
            
What if I don't?
                       
What if I never make it home?
           
What if I bleed?
            
What if I break?
                        
And I find that I can't take
     
The city below the Citadel
         
Holding my own hand?

And I'm breaking on the balcony
Breaking window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I'm walking on clouds
Walking on stars

What if I fall?
What if I don't?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can't take
The city below the Citadel

Holding my own hand?

       
I'm holding on to something
        
It's keeping me from jumping
                       
I'm so afraid to do it alone
      
And holding up this fortress
   
With imaginary forces
                       
Longing for a life down below

What if I fall?
What if I don't?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can't take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?